Someone

I miss school . I miss my friends. I miss the daily life I had at acjc. Wish I could meet them more often.

I miss Corrine my good friend. After alvls we really bonded . I'm sad that we aren't what we were a few months ago, and doubt we'll ever be. A friendship that I will miss.

Wish I had someone. Maybe people will call me desperate, but I just wanna know how it feels to be in love.

Wish I had someone to pour my heart out to. Someone who wants to do the same to me. Someone to go to the movies with . Someone to just laze around with. Someone to love.

I know I have to be patient. But I hope that someone appears in my life real soon.

I mustn't let this setback stop me from chasing my dreams!

This is the biggest setback of my life so far, and it has led to the biggest challenge of my life as well.
Studying while in army will be tough. But still I will give it my all. Cuz I have the support of my friends and family and I know I can do better!

Damn glad I have such a supportive family.
Now I probably will have to opt out of command sch so that I have a chance of getting a 8-5 vocation after my bmt.

I created this mess myself, and now I will have to clean it up!

First Taste of Failure in my life. Fucked up my Alvls big time. I'm gonna retake it. Its not the end of the world. There just a long and tough road ahead for me.

Only surprised at how badly I did for GP and Geog , both C.

Math got C while chem got D ...expected la.

Econs got B

Many friends got A . They deserve it. I know how much effort I put in la...

Now I really can't bear to talk to my parents. Feel like a failure, that I've disappointed them. But at least they're encouraging.

I got myself into this mess, now I've got to get myself out of it.

Booking in at 8.10pm later.

For some reason I feel very nostalgic. Miss zhss. Miss sjab. Miss ACJC. Miss the good old days. Miss my friends.

Though to 1 friend in particular, I'm like the backup plan. Sometimes I really wonder if this is an asymmetrical friendship because apparently I seem to value the friendship more than you. Like I'm willing to spend whatever little time I have to meet up with you, but you rather go play darts with your friends. Haiz...like come on la, ''not sure if they'll wanna go play darts eh. See first? ''

If they want play darts then you're just fine with not meeting up with me? If they don't want to play darts then its convenient to meet me? so they come 1st, I come 2nd? Not asking you to not meet them or what, but aren't your already having dinner with them? Just wanted to meet you and eat dessert, is that really too much to ask for? Getting tired of being the only one asking, and always getting rejected.

and when was the last time we met? like almost a month ago? when was the last time you met them?

Was really disappointed when I saw your reply. Seriously. Felt like you're not interested in meeting up with me at all. If your really appreciate this friendship of ours, if you really don't want us to drift apart again, then I think you should put some effort into it. Friendship isn't a one-way street.

I've been keeping this bottled inside me for awhile now, don't really know how to say it to you face to face, but I think friends should be honest to each other , thats why I chose to write it here so that you know how I feel.

When the cold wind blows...

Tmr night need to book in already.
Dunno how but I managed to survive 2 weeks inside. Damn glad that my company is jaguar . Friends in kestrel company which is just next door to me suffer a lot more.
My section mates are pretty great! Maybe cuz it's army, and we're all in it together, that's why it's easier to make friends .
Army food is okay. Sometimes good, sometimes nice. Though breakfast usually sucks.

Glad to be home though! :)
Though I think it's now going to be difficult to keep in touch with my close friends since I only get out in the weekends and not much time to meet up at all. Haiz. And not all friends take the initiative to ask me how's my day and all. How to maintain sia...

"When the cold wind blows... I know I know...you have to go... so hurry back home...cuz I miss you so."
One of my fav army songs!

Exactly 1 week from now I'll be in army.
Was suppose to go eat supper with Toh but it got cancelled.
Tmr going chitann house for cny visiting then next day the guys gonna come my house then go Claudia house after that.
Looking forward to Tmr! :)




"I wonder how, I wonder why, yesterday you told me about the blue blue sky"
I'm not going to regret anything !

Had a great day shopping at orchard with Toh today :) bought 2 really nice tshirts plus received a nice blue one from her :)
Went to watch contraband at lido after shopping. Decent movie.

Haiz I wish the good times never end.